Monday, May 3, 2010

Week 29

Day 203:

Well the wedding was beautiful. I'll post a picture up very soon. We drove 6 hours, which was very tortuous, cause I don't like sitting for too long and especially hate feeling so exhausted after doing nothing.

At the last minute I got a new dress to wear to the wedding. Size 14, the smallest yet. I made sure to take pictures with my hubby so that I could see them and see myself in a size 14. Unfortunately, I guess I still have a bad mental image of myself. I looked at the pictures and didn't see much difference. In my mind, I still looked big. I'm not discouraged though, this just shows me that I still have a ways to go, and I'm continuing to plug away.

While at the hotel I took advantage of their exercise facility and walked on the treadmill and elliptical cycle. Then jumped in the pool. Good exercise. That made me feel better about eating the delicious barbeque at the wedding and of course some wedding cake.

Sunday we ate a nice breakfast and started the drive back, we ate at an Italian place and I had a hefty lunch. Once home, my family and I went for a "family bike ride" around the neighborhood which was some more exercise. So regardless of the calorie intake, I'm less worried about red lining. I got some exercise in over the weekend, despite being stagnant most of the time.

So as of this weekend I've lost 39 lbs. So very close to hitting that 40 mark and only 6 pounds shy of hitting my June 30th goal. I'm really hoping to hit it by the end of May, but that's wishful thinking. I haven't had a chance to do my measurements this weekend, so I'll update that later on this week. It's going to be a stressful next two weeks, so I'm really hoping to start on target and keep up with my routine.

Overall, I'm only 18 pounds away from my big goal. It's amazing seeing how close I'm getting. I'm anxious to get there, mostly cause I keep thinking about starting my second journey of this - the next 50 pounds. But it's far away and I don't want to get ahead of myself. I'm thinking of starting the Couch to 5K program once I hit my goal. I think it'd be great to be able to run a 5K.

I guess the real reason I'm eager to get there is once again, those pictures reemphasize to me that I'm not where I want to be - not by a long shot. And I'm not sad or angry about it. Just ready to change it. I'm ready for the next challenge. Thus far I've lost a bunch, I've done even more, and I'm proud of where I am and what I've done. But I'm ready to do more.

Long and short of it, is just like a senior at the end of the school year... I've got senioritis. I'm ready to move on, I'm ready to take the next big leap. Unfortunately I've got about 13-14 more weeks left before my goal. So I need some patience.

1 comment:

  1. Size 14 is great! But I do understand how you feel about seeing pictures of yourself and not quite seeing the differences. I could have written this entry myself, I know how you're feeling...just so eager to move forward! I've been toying with the idea of doing the C25k. I'm not sure yet. My husband did it and he's running now and he's 282 pounds but his legs have always been muscular because he's on his feet all day at work so he had that advantage and I don't. Anyway, congratulations! You're doing so well!