Friday, December 30, 2011

Nowadays

It's a regular day at the office, I was walking around being introduced to some various clients.  My co-worker introduced me by name and then proceeded to discuss what my role was in the company and a little bit about who I was, what my hobbies are..."...she's a big time athlete, always going to the gym and running marathons and such..."

Whoa.

Is he talking to me?
Did he just call me ..... an athlete?

It never occurred to me... I'm an athlete?  What does it mean to be athletic?

Running.
Weight Lifting.
Races.

I do all those things... so maybe I am an athlete.

I still see the same overweight gal from 3 years ago who would justify having cheesy jalapeno poppers cause a jalapeno is a vegetable, right?
Nowadays I don't touch fast food. ever.

3 years ago if I had gotten a gift card to a running store, some yoga socks, and a running medallion for Christmas... I would have burst into tears thinking everyone was "judging" me.
Nowadays, I get excited cause it's what I want.

3 years ago, I wanted people to perceive me as an athlete, a runner, a person who takes care of herself
Nowadays, I am that person.

It's interesting to see how people perceive me and how completely contrasting it is to the way I feel about myself.

One of my favorite quotes is by Sci-Fi writer Isaac Asimov:
"And above all things, never think that you're not good enough yourself. A man should never think that. My belief is that in life people will take you at your own reckoning."

3 years ago, people thought of me as an overly sensitive, happy go lucky, overweight gal.  Cause that's what I thought of myself.
Nowadays - I'm a healthy woman who is fierce.  Strong.  Tough.  Adventurous.  Happy.  Active.

...And, of course, I'm so much more than that, but here's lesson, kids...

I wanted to be those things. Sure I wanted the weight loss, but what I really wanted, deep down, is to be happy with myself. Lemme repeat that:

Deep down what I really wanted was to be happy with myself.
And I found that.
I found that in healthy living.

So nowadays people see me and ask me "how's the weight loss?" or "how many miles are you running?" or any other random status question.

What you really should be asking me is... Are you happy?

And nowadays - the answer is yes.

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