Monday, September 17, 2012

Pre-Fitbloggin 2012

This weekend I have the absolute wonderful opportunity to attend Fitbloggin 2012 in Baltimore.

For those of you who don't know what that is.  It's a conference geared towards health and fitness bloggers held in Baltimore annually.  Sessions cover healthy eating, fitness, blogging, social media, etc. Sponsors and vendors attend with pletny of swag.  Incredible people who are warm, caring and really listen are there.

It rejuvenates me.

Check out last year's posts on Fitbloggin:
Countdown to Fitbloggin 11
Top Ten Reasons to Run a 5K at Fitbloggin
Fitbloggin 11 - My First 5K
Fitbloggin 11 - Photo Dump
Fitbloggin 11 - Precious Moment (Recap)
My First 5K (Recap) Fitbloggin 11
Fitbloggin 11 - Swag Bag Giveaway

After almost a year and a half later many things have changed. Some good, some bad. But it make me both excited and hesitant to attend.  Here are some reasons why.

I've gained weight. This is probably the most difficult part for me.  After Fitbloggin 11 I trained to run a half-marathon.  Was down to the 180s... I was super woman. And now I'm close to 200 lbs.  Something I swore I'd never hit ever again. (I have the tattoo to prove it.)  It makes me feel guilty, sad, depressed - which of course makes me want to eat, sit on the couch, and watch tv... my retreat mechanism when I'm feeling bad about myself.

New job. New house. I've made some huge strides in my career.  A job that is a bit stressful and requires full attention all day (less social media/blogging fun).  I've been speaking at presentations and started a professional blog for myself. And studying to take a certification in December.  We moved into a new house and then our old house (we were selling) after a hurricane got a tree fallen on it.  So that will require a lot of repair.

No plan. Right now I have no plan to tackle my internal issues lately. Which is very unlike me.  Over the past 3 years what I've learned from my journey is that I make my own choices.  And some of those are good  and some bad, but I was focused.  And now I find myself less focused, more flying by the seat of my pants... and forgetful.  And I know I don't like it, but I'm unsure of how to gain control solve it. I'm sure there's a future blog post in there.

So there it is the think and thin of my status recently.

On a positive note I'm excited to see my virtual friends, get some hugs, cry some tears, exercise, learn, and have a break.  I'll even be bringing the entire Dubya family! (Although they will be touring with friends while I attend the conference.)

I guess it could be said that I live multiple lives...
a career woman, a wife, a mother, blogger, runner... it'll be nice to be DubyaWife for a little while.

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1 comment:

  1. I've been there too. You hit a major goal then people see you and exclaim "WOW, you look amazing" etc. You go back home, the weight creeps back on, then you're embarrassed to see those same people again. I'm just on my way back from post-wedding weight gain that brought about the same emotions you are talking about. My attitude has become don't look back, don't feel guilty and just grit your teeth and fight back to your happy phase.