Friday, November 23, 2012

Feeling Good

So I've been off the map a bunch since Fitbloggin and I apologize for that. Rather than give a long drawn out lament as to how I lost motivation, started gaining weight, and feeling guilty instead we'll start from present day.

Before & After my morning run
It's the day after Thanksgiving and I'm happy to say this week I've had three work out sessions.

Tuesday I did 30 minutes of elliptical while watching Doctor Who (a new obsession). Wednesday while my daughter was volunteering as a Holiday Helper for Pre-Thanksgiving dinner function downtown, I went to a local YMCA on a guest pass and did some interval training on the elliptical. I had some seriously sore hammies and calves after that.

I had panned to wake up Thanksgiving and do a walk around the neighborhood, but that evening figured my legs needed a rest so I just slept in, got up and did the "Thanksgiving feast" with family. Enjoy my day, carefree. This morning I got up (albeit late, but still up) and ran/walked a little over a mile.

Meanwhile I've been tracking my calories and food on My Fitness Pal, with a pass on Thanksgiving as a free day - cause, imo, it shouldn't count ;-) So I've been good about thinking ahead, preparing lunches for the office, sticking to portions, and staying away from sweets and high-glycemic carbs. Not to mention drinking at least 64 oz of water a day.

The point of all this is to say. I. Feel. Great.
It's only been a few days, but I feel like myself again. Energy. Happy. Proud.
It's how I lived for many many months, and it feels like coming home.

This morning I weighed myself. I'm back up to 205 lbs. Sigh. It's sad and disheartening to think I got down (at my lowest) to 179 and now I have to start over. Clothes fit tighter. The size 14s I bought only months ago don't fit. (I'm sure others can relate.)

But I'm trying not to focus on that and focus on the present. Here I am, feeling good. Here I am taking it day by day, and I remember this feeling. I feel like I'm in control. And proud. So proud.

So I'll focus on day to day, focus on those little choices. And if the pounds fall, they do, if not? Well at least I feel good, right?

5 comments:

  1. Awesome to see you're back on track! I'm getting it together too. :)

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    1. Thanks, Heather! IT feels good to be back to a routine.

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  2. I recognise myself in what you're writing. Sometimes we need a day "off" of counting calories and exercising.

    I'm a lousy commenter, but since I've managed to finally DO leave a comment: I enjoy reading your blog. :)

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    1. Thanks for the comments and de-lurking, Sal!

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  3. I can SO relate. I don't even want to get on the scale. Finishing work and moving have caused havoc with my usual exercise regime and of course I've dealt with the stress and frustration by eating.

    But, I love your approach. For example, it's morning here at the moment and I've been for a walk, had a healthy breakfast (for me, anyway!) and am now blog reading and commenting etc. I also stayed away from unhealthy food choices yesterday... So I need to stop wallowing over the last couple of months and focus on what I can do today.

    Like you've said... a routine is SO important.

    Deb

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