... that they don't care.
And having suffered for many years with overeating and depression, I can tell you that the problem with "fat people" is that we do care.
We care a lot.
We care so much that we focus on it and pine and gripe about it that it leads us down that depression road of guilt and shame. So then we eat...
This past year I've been victim to this. I care. I care how I look. I care what others think of me. I care about my job. My family. My weight.
And it all. piles. up. It becomes this huge heap of guilt, shame, obligation, stress... that I end up eating or "zoning out" (TV, movies) to rid myself of it.
As I look back on this year I realize that many bad things happened, many tough challenges. And while it's easy to want to label those things as "bad" instead I think I'd like to label them as "learning lessons."
Cause I care. I care about the quality of my life. I care about my health. I care about my success as a business woman. I care so much. And in caring too much, we get overwhelmed.
As I go into 2013, I'm not going to try to control any of these things, nor will I be apathetic towards them. But be wary of the delicate balance.
Not focusing on the mistakes of past, nor on the goals of the future. But being present. Caring in the present.