|Summer 2004 120lbs|
"What's a fat gram?"
(Yes, I embarrassingly actually spoke those words – as an adult – even if I was just a college student.)
Despite my unintentional, blissful ignorance, I was definitely that friend that avoided being hated in junior high, high school and college for never gaining weight but ONLY I was also the girl you wanted your boyfriend to be best friends with since I had the figure of a female Urkel.
I did learn about fat grams the hard way, but only in my late 20s/early 30s. And then, I wanted to handwrite SCROLLS of apologies to the friends I'd asked about fat grams. I mean, I had no.idea. But suddenly, when my normal friends were getting married and having babies, my metabolism slowed down.
My weight woes didn't hit all at once. Things just started to even out. You know -- every once in a while, I could eat more than half a burger by myself. It was weird, but whatever. Everyone had been telling me to "put a little meat on my bones" my whole life, right? I'd been 5'2" and had weighed less than 100 lbs with the figure of an adolescent boy my whole life, so wasn't it time to fill out? (You can see how I wasn't really all that concerned.)
|Fall 2010 140lbs|
Well, "a little filling out" was fine, but a few years later, I had a serious metabolic slow down, which led to not fitting into my clothes or liking the mirror at all. Diets and exercise weren't working. Was I just a failure? And why had I ever asked my friends about those blasted fat grams? I wasn't trying to be rude back then, but was that karma thing real, and why was it haunting me?!
Turns out, karma or not, two things were very real: hypothyroidism and insulin resistance.
My goal is never to scare anyone who's been, as was my case, "pedaling and dieting their way to a higher weight," but to merely inform anyone who’s been sincerely following dieting guidelines and not seeing results that checking out a medically supervised weight loss program or seeing a nutritionist may be beneficial. I'm glad I did. I would've never expected diagnoses to bring such relief and results to my world.
Of note: Even after being diagnosed and medicated, I had to work very hard for about six months to get off the weight that those two disorders had put on my body, and even now, I (unfortunately) can't get by with medicating and not doing my part to stay healthy. Diet and exercise are key.
But, finding my issues after trying so hard to do things on my own and failing so miserably are still an indescribable relief.
So if you’re struggling – through thick or thin – please don’t give up. Experts are trained to help, even people like us.
|Christmas 2012 125lbs|