Monday, August 3, 2015

To Weigh or Not to Weigh

It's been 30 days since I've made some slight but radical changes in my health lifestyle. 

I stopped weighing myself. 
I stopped taking measurements. 
I stopped tracking calories. (Both during exercise and for nutrition)
I stopped attempting a ketogenic (low carb, high fat) diet. 

I started working out (or stretching) everyday. 
I started doing strength training 2/3 a week. 
I started a daily food/activity journal. 
I started drinking 2L of water everyday. 
I started sleeping 7 hours or more per day. 

It's so counter intuitive compared to the first 80 lbs that I lost. 
I meticulously tracked everything. I estimated weight loss goals. I planned. I weighed in daily. 
I obsessed. 


Now here's the deal.
I'd be lying that all of the changes I've made aren't in an effort to lose weight. 
Brutal reality is that I'm an overweight female in her mid-30s. Unless some miracle happens I'm pretty much always going to be trying to lose weight or maintain it. However, I give some credence to the Healthy At Every Size preachers. I do firmly believe that one has to be comfortable in their own skin before they can truly make changes for the right reasons. 

Today marks 30 days that I've stuck to my plan. 
I can already tell I have more muscle. That my clothes fit looser better. And I feel like a million bucks. Dubya has commented that he sees some progress. 

So... Do I weigh myself? 
Do I need to know that number? 
What if I increased in weight? 

I'm really 50/50 on the whole idea.
I love the idea of just continuing down this road of wellness with no expectations but hoping for the best. Which is very unlike DubyaWife. I'm goal driven. I'm ambitious. And yet - I feel like I'm still being those things, but without the scale. Now I'm focusing on motivation. On being consistent. On maintaining this great "life high" and sticking with it as long as I can. 

When I first started my journey, I took it day by day. And I just worried about doing awesome things today and trying my best to do them again tomorrow. I like this idea. I like this momentum I have going. 

Maybe I didn't lose anything. Maybe I did. But right now, after 30 days, I really don't care what the scale says. I feel amazing. And I want to keep feeling amazing. If a "weigh-in" risks my mental wellness and emotional stability, then it's not worth it. 

10 comments:

  1. I much prefer checking out how clothes fit to checking a scale.

    With added weight training, you might build muscle and end up smaller but heavier. Do you celebrate the smaller size or agonize about the higher weight?

    Do your clothes fit at all differently than they did a month ago? A quarter ago? A year ago? That's a better assessment.

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    1. Much agreed, Deb. I'm focusing on "how I feel" and "how my clothes feel" than anything else. I have a small little biceps that have developed. And my butt feels firmer. Clothes aren't "falling off me" but definitely fit better. Hopefully after another 30 days (and more) they will be!

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  2. I started doing Crossfit about a month ago and I've GAINED 4lbs and lost a dress size! If finding out you didn't lose will hinder your positive changes, don't do it! Forget the scale- measure goals like how fast you can run a mile, how heavy you can dead lift, or how many push-ups you can do without dropping down to knees. My current goal is a pull up. I've never done one in my life, but I've moved from 4 bands assistance to 3 this month and am on target to do a pull up November 1!

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    1. Crossfit is so awesome and it's one of my goals to join a box eventually. I'm just not at a place physically yet where i can do the awesome things at crossfit that I want to. So I'm working on it.

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  3. Oh that is such a quandary. I feel like on the one hand it is helpful to see progress, but it is such a slippery slope. However. You are awesome either way!

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  4. Love this post! I feel like I am in a very similar place. I have spent a few years obssessing and counting and measuring and trying new diets and avoiding all processed food like the plague. Which would eventually lead to binge eating all the things I loved and undoing any progress. I am currently also trying to just be more consistent and reading your post makes me feel encouraged and inspired! Thank you! :)

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    1. Consistency and motivation I find are the too most important attributes to health and fitness goals. Glad I inspired you! <3

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  5. Unless you're trying to reach a certain number because its required (for instance, me wanting to skydive), don't even worry about it. You're seeing tons of NSVs, let that speak for your progress.

    However, on the other hand, I do understand that curiosity. If you do decide to weigh, decide beforehand that no matter what the scale says, you won't let it influence where you go from that point. Keep doing what you're doing as you've been doing it until the progress stops and you have to adjust. Good luck! (@drmarctagon)

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  6. I think it's okay to flip-flop on the whole scale-or-on-scale issue. I have times when I put the scale away and times when I hop on fairly regularly. Yes, you can get obsessed with the number and it's infuriating to do all the right things and not see progress on the scale, but I more often find myself too distracted and off track if I stray from weighing myself for too long. My messed up brain equates not weighing to eating a plate of nachos because... well, why the hell not? At the end of the day, you gotta find what works for you. That's my two cents (that'll be one nickel, please).

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